Dude are you still active here? I saw your threads and it reminds me so much of myself when I was a young man full of angst and trying to figure things out. This is the closest thing I will get to traveling back in time and helping my younger self. If you are still around and still want someone to talk to or some advice, please feel free to email me or direct message. If not I genuinely wish you all the best my young friend. Give em hell!